Chapter 6
Xander
I was in my bedroom, lying on my bed, deep in thought when I caught a whiff of her presence just outside my bedroom door. Despite her knocking, I hesitated to open the door, assuming she would eventually leave. To my surprise, she persisted. The doorknob turned, and my door creaked open. Why is she here?
“It's late,” I said, sitting up on my bed. I gazed at her, only to find her looking back at me with a different expression in her eyes. She seemed to be conveying her feelings for me. I could sense her desire, coupled with a hint of anger. A smile played on her lips as she approached, and all I could do was wait.
Then she started stripping. Although I was tempted to look, and I didn’t say that I was not seeing her, I didn’t leave her gaze. I chose not to because I wanted to know if she was serious about it. I want to know why she was doing this.
She reached my face with her hands shaking, and I could see that she was nervous. Why not, when it was the first time that she did this? I know, because I am the first man in her life. I want her; I can’t deny that, so I pulled her, let her sit on my lap, and kissed her.
We were looking at each other, panting, when we stopped kissing for a while, and I told her, “You’re the one who came here; don’t say that I forced you this time.” I waited for whatever she was going to say, but she kissed me instead.
I threw all my hesitations at the back of my head and did everything I wanted to do to her. I had been wanting to do this to her since I was 18, when I found out that she was mine. But what can I do? She was only 11 years old at that time. I don’t know how it happened, but it just did. Normally, I should wait for her to turn 18 before I can finally smell her scent and know that she’s my mate. It was too early for that to happen. And fuck. I felt so frustrated that I had to wait 7 years before I could claim her.
The night was blissful. We made love endlessly. "Let me just rest, and I am going to leave, and I will not let anyone see me," she said. I was about to tell her not to leave and to stay with me, but since she had already made her statement, I decided to talk to her in the morning. I wrapped my arms around her waist so I could feel her until I dozed off and fell asleep.
"Aghhhhh…," I screamed after waking up. Glancing beside me, I realized Chassy was no longer there. 'Limuel, in my room, faster!' I screamed through our mind-link, urgently calling my beta's attention.
When he arrived, I was holding my chest because it hurt like hell. "What’s wrong?" he asked, and then Jack, my gamma, appeared. I looked at him and said,
"“Find Chassy!” I commanded him, and he nodded. I could see that he was worried about me, but I had given him the alpha command, so he had nothing to do but follow my instructions. Limuel took me to the pack hospital, and from there, I lost consciousness.
“What! You still haven't found her?” I asked, anger evident in my voice. It had been over two weeks since she left, and I still had no news about her whereabouts. I knew she had nowhere to go, so why the hell did she leave? Didn’t she realize how dangerous it was for her, being alone and turning rogue as a woman?
"No news, Xander," Jack replied with his head down. It was just the three of us, so they were allowed to call me by my name since we were friends. I know that I have been pressuring him ever since Chassy left, but I had no choice but to do that. I want him to do everything to find her.
“Besides that night, do you still feel any more pain?" Limuel asked, and I shook my head.
“I don’t believe what the doctor said; she didn’t reject me. I felt her. She loves me, and I make sure to let her feel my emotions as well.”
"Xander, when the wolves from the Raven Claw Pack arrived, they were discussing the Luna ceremony, and I believe she overheard them. I attempted to prevent them from talking because I didn't want Luna to misunderstand," Jack explained, and I glanced at him.
"Why didn't you inform me?" I inquired. Limuel was also focused on him.
“I did!” he exclaimed. “Remember, after they left, I talked to you about them, and I made sure to tell you about Luna,” he added, and I stared at him. I remember that time, but– “Wait, so it was true that sometimes you feel like you can’t hear anything?” he added, and I nodded my head.
Yes, that happens, especially when it's about Chassy. And until now, I couldn't find the reason. I know I can hear very well, even the tiniest noise. So, I wondered what was wrong with me. "I think she rejected you right after she left the border. Because we couldn’t trace her scent anymore, and you know that in our territory, there are a lot of rogues lurking around; her scent must have mixed with theirs," Limuel said.
“I understand,” I replied, leaning back in my chair. What am I going to do to find her?
“You should have talked to her, you know," my beta said in a low voice. “She could have understood why you can’t claim and mark her yet,” he added.
“Yes, and I can’t do anything about it,” I replied. “Or she may not believe it either. We don’t know.”
“We’re going to find her. I promise you that we will bring our Luna back to our pack,” Jack said, so I smiled at him.
“Thank you,” I told him.
The next day, I was on the training ground and was about to finish when Jack came running. “I think I saw her,” he said as soon as he was closer. My heart suddenly stopped beating, eager to hear more news that my gamma would unfold.