Chapter 2 SO BROKEN
“Poor Valerie, I told you, you can't get married before me. You think I was joking around. I also told you, I can make your man be my man, but you are too naive, and you underestimated me Valerie. I am too beautiful to be a single, babe these curves ain’t no joke”
she turned around to show off her killer curves.
“I…don't understand, that is my fiancé” I replied and chuckled sadly.
Truly, I don't understand. What the hell is Kamsy saying? As an introvert and someone who loves genuinely,Kamsy is more like a sister to me.
I love Kamsy, I care so much about her, I love Kamsy like a sister I never had.
She showed me her finger.
“I am engaged to your man, not your type of engagement because we also have a wedding invitation card for you.....”.
I thought I was hallucinating.
A wedding card for me?
“Baby?”
She turned to Luke.
Luke brought a card and gave it to her.
She threw it on the floor in front of me, smiling while leaning on Luke’s shoulder.
I slowly picked it up, curious. This is crazy, I think I am going crazy, all I could do was laugh.
“You got me, is this some kind of TikTok prank or surprise? You are joking right, you two are getting married, a big joke, he is my fiancé, and you are ….”
Kamsy cuts in, making a sad face.
“I am your best friend, yes I know honey, life is so sad, when you can't keep your man, well, someone else does that for you”.
I still can't believe it.
“This is no movie Kamsy,so stop joking about important stuff like, you joke too much Kamsy, and Luke enough of this prank, please someone be serious”.
I chuckled out sadly.
Yes, that was just the beginning of my story, it happens the surprise breakup wasn’t a prank at all.
I got a cab and went straight back to my place. I cried all the way home, making the cab driver steal glances at me.
I got home, paid him and went inside, just at the doorway I suddenly had this idea to commit suicide.
It is for the best, I feel like, that's what I deserve, I just can't live with this pain and betrayal.
It was my best friend and the first man I ever loved, my first kiss, my first ever and the friend I could die for.
What is my crime?
Nothing, absolutely nothing!
I have a personality that makes it easy to be stamped on and kick off. I wish I could have a little of that toughness to fight back, but my heart was weak. I should end my useless life, or else I will keep on keeping on.
Not only that, but I rushed out in the rain to get rat poison. My phone rang several times in my raincoat, but I ignored it. I decided to buy a sniper in the nearest store.
“Valerie?”
A voice called me out from the queue, I turned, it's my colleague Daniel. I quickly forced a smile awkwardly.
“Hey Daniel…mm., what are you doing in my neighborhood?”
“Here is your sniper ma’am”
The sales girl handed it over.
I cursed within me, but thanked her.
“Those stubborn rats, they really need to be stopped,”
I said out loud without no one asking what it's for.
“I called you several times, you didn't pick up, I got worried, so I decided to come around. Can I accompany you home?” he said softly.
“Not now please!” I yelled in my mind.
But if I refuse his offer, he will definitely suspect something.
“No problem at all Dan” I replied with a smile.
He had an umbrella with him, so he shades me with it, without minding his body getting soaked.
We got to my place and I tried to get him going, so I could do what I had to.
“I am expecting a very important visitor, thanks for your company and the umbrella too”.
I turned to go in.
“Can I stay with you for a while?”
He said, looking at the poison I was holding.
I was really impatient. I have no time for this now.
“Alright”.
I gave in, he thanked me and entered the room.
I took off my wet clothes, got dried up, then changed into a nightie.
I put on the generator and turned on the television for him to keep him busy, but he kept following me around like a puppy.
“About what happened in the company….”
“Oh, please don't start,”
I said in my mind while smiling and nodding at him.
“Are you sure you are okay, Val?”
I just flashed my teeth and nodded.
“I am okay, absolutely”.
“Your eyes are red and weak, I can't believe you were in a relationship with a jerk like that for 3 years”.
“Luke is not a jerk, he was just deceived” I replied slowly.
“Deceived my foot! Is he a child?”
“They said boys will always be boys”.
I tried to end the discussion.
“He engaged you in front of your colleagues and thinks it's proper to end it there too, what nonsense, can't you see how Jennifer and others laughed at you? They said lots of stuff about you and thanks to your ex-boyfriend”.
I couldn't take it, so I stood up, my heart pounding heavily.
“What is your problem, Daniel! Please…please can you just let me be, for goodness’ sake I am fine!
Fine!
Stop bringing that up, okay!
If they wish to laugh at me, let them laugh, mock me, call me the names they want to, I don't care.
You are a man, stop going around gossiping like a woman, just let me be, please!”
I shouted back, holding back my tears.
Looking at the disappointment on his face, I knew I went far.
Daniel is the only one who has been friendly to me since I joined that company, he is not a gossip either, he just cares too much.
Sometimes, he is just like a reflection of myself but a male version, maybe that's why he is closer to me than others, he never meant any harm, and he's not doing this to take advantage of me anytime.
Besides, Daniel is in a healthy relationship, so whatever his reasons are, they're pure.
I wanted to apologize but was too ashamed to, I never should have let my emotions get in my head.
“Fine I will leave, I just can't get the drama at the company off my head, I put myself in your shoes Valerie and decided to check on you as a friend should”.
He said gently, then walked to the place I had placed that sniper and took it.
“If you don't have any reason to live, can I be the reason, no matter what you think you passed through, it's not worth it, I wish you can see yourself the way I see you, look into that mirror right there and tell me, is that brat really worth your life?”
“My fiancé and friend whom I trusted like a sister betrayed me, Daniel. They played me with no mercy, I was the side chick all along.
The money chic, the laundry chick, the cook chick and the abortion chick, while she is the main woman.
I was deceived and stabbed in the back by my best friend, someone I once gave my blood for, someone I fought for, someone I will literally do anything for.
Someone who I shared all my secrets with!
What about my boyfriend Luke?
He was my first, I loved and gave up my all in our relationship, I forgave his unfaithfulness and broken promises.
I tried to be the perfect partner, yet, here we are, without a single reason why he chose to hurt me, tell me how someone as unfortunate as I should live on”.
“Don't say such things, Val”.
“I killed seven babies, seven! Daniel…seven of them precious souls because my friend told me that it will see my relationship because my fiancé said he isn't ready to be a father, I aborted them, now I have realized the monster I was then, I was so selfish that I don't care about those lives I wasted, I deserve to die”.
“You are not the only person who has had an abortion, and it's a good thing you regret it now”.
He sighed deeply
“Please forgive yourself and move on”.
He finally, and left.
I fell on my knees and cried my heart out.