Chapter 5 His guilt
JANELLE
The attendant looked me up and down as if trying to guess my size.
"Follow me," she instructed.
I followed her, and she handed me a light blue dress.
"Go try this on in the fitting room," she said, pointing in that direction.
I took the dress and walked toward where she had pointed.
As I walked in, I heard a voice.
"Donovan, do you really have to marry that girl from the Moore family?"
I grimaced.
That was my family's name.
Could it just a coincidence?
Curious, I peered through the crack in the door at the fitting room next to mine.
I saw a man sitting on a couch, but his back was facing me.
A woman was clearly sitting on his lap, her arms wrapped around his neck.
Her voice sounded kittenish, as if she were trying to sound adorable.
"I don't want you to marry her," she added.
DONOVAN
I stared at the sad look on Laura's face.
I really couldn't blame her. After what happened that night, I had promised to do anything she wanted.
It was the least I could do after taking advantage of her.
But as for saying no to this marriage, I couldn't. My position at the company would be at stake if I broke off this arrangement.
So my plan now was to get married first, then find a way to end it so I could get back together with Laura.
I never thought I'd ever be romantically involved with Laura. She had been my secretary for three years, and things between us had always been professional. She was very good at her job and accompanied me on most business trips.
Including the one from two months ago.
I was still investigating how I got drugged, and so far, there was still no answer.
One moment I was having dinner with some investors and talking about business, and the next thing I knew, I began feeling restless.
I excused myself to the restroom, hoping to get some relief, but I felt worse.
My dick was as hard as a rock, as if I would die if I didn't get release.
When I got out of the restroom and ran into a woman, I felt a strong urge to pin her to the wall and fuck her.
I had never taken advantage of a woman before.
I know I had been accused of many things, but one thing no one could accuse me of was rape.
I loved my women willing and giving full consent, and I tried to fight it.
I rushed to my suite.
I locked myself in and jerked off, but it didn't help.
My need for sex kept increasing. For the first time in my life, I lost all control of myself.
I remember a woman walking in. Laura said she wanted to come get me so the meeting could continue.
But then I pounced on her like a beast.
I could still recall her cries as I used her body to satisfy my uncontrollable lust.
When I woke up the next morning, she was lying naked on the bed in tears.
Just moments after that, I saw blood on the sheets.
She had been a virgin.
Of course I knew how women wanted their first time to be special.
I felt so fucking guilty for taking that away from her.
I hugged her and apologized; she wept for a long time in my arms.
I told her I'd do anything to make it up to her, but she said she wanted to be with me.
It felt strange that she wanted a relationship after what I had done to her.
But she said she didn't blame me; she blamed the aphrodisiac I was given, and since then, she had been helping me try to find out who drugged me.
If being in a relationship with her would make up for that night, I figured it was the least I could do, so I agreed to date her.
Laura leaned into me more, snapping me back to reality.
"I already told you the plan. Don't worry. We won't be separated," I assured her.
She smiled at me.
"Go on. Go pick more dresses. Buy anything you want," I urged.
Laura smiled as she got up from his lap to pick more dresses, but she still felt disturbed.
She had wanted this man for three years, and now that she finally had him, he was going to marry someone else.
She pouted.
She never knew he was betrothed to someone.
From the first day she set eyes on Donovan, she had a huge crush on him. When she got the position as his secretary, her crush gradually developed into something deeper.
She had tried everything to get him to notice her romantically.
She experimented with her natural look, tried different makeup styles. She dressed provocatively many times to make herself attractive to him.
But he never noticed. She had even tried to bump into him a few times and made it look like an accident, but still, he saw her as nothing more than a secretary.
One day, while hanging out with her friend, she heard her say that her husband became more interested when he learned she was a virgin.
From that point, he wanted to be her only man for the rest of her life.
That sparked something in Laura's mind.
But the problem was that she wasn't a virgin.
She couldn't even pretend, because she had been with several men. Even during the three years she badly wanted Donovan, she was still sexually active with others.
So she thought of making him believe she was a virgin.
She drugged him with a powerful aphrodisiac and made sure all the lights in the suite were faulty that night so he couldn't make out the real face of the woman he slept with.
She hired a town resident to help her find a virgin and send her to that room.
After Donovan satisfied himself with the girl, and after the girl left, Laura slipped into the room, undressed, and lay on the bed.
So, to Donovan, he believed he had taken his secretary's virginity that night, and when she appeared heartbroken the next morning, she got him to agree to date her.
Laura thought she had finally won.
For two months now, Donovan, who was usually cold, had been treating her tenderly.
She thought they would be married soon.
But she was shocked when he told her about his arranged marriage.
Even though he assured her that it wouldn't last, Laura still felt troubled.