He's engaged??
I relaxed on Sunday, didn't get up to much outside of texting my friends to find out when we could get together again.
I have to wait for Lily and Melissa to get back to me to let me know when they're available.
Monday rolls in, the start of my second full week working for Mr. Logan. I won't say it's been a breeze, but I love what I do so much, it doesn't even really feel like work.
I wake right on time and get myself up and ready. I decide to forgo breakfast thinking that I could use eating with me to get Mr. Logan to actually eat.
So I just grab a cup of coffee and sit at my kitchen table, nursing it while all up in my head.
My watch beeps letting me know that its 8 o'clock. I pull out of my stupor and clean up after myself before heading out.
I make it to work at 8:50, where I swipe in and head up to my floor. I greet Shelley as I pass her, and head to my office. I put my things away and head to the cafeteria. Looks like it's breakfast sandwich day. I grab 2 trays and plate 2 sandwiches before going to the coffee station and grabbing Mr. Logan's coffee. I grab an orange juice and cranberry juice from the fridge and set them on the trays.
I walk to Mr. Logan's office and tap the door with my foot.
"Come in."
I open the door, after some maneuvering, and walk over to the coffee table depositing the trays. I turn to face Mr. Logan to find him looking at me. "Good morning sir, would you care to eat with me this morning? I didn't have time to eat this morning so I thought I could eat with you."
He looks at me with a strange look on his face before saying, "I see you're changing up your tactics in you mission to feed me." "Fine, I'll eat with you, but if I were you I wouldn't get too comfortable. It won't happen every day."
I nod, "That's fine sir. Small victories."
He laughs as he walks over, "Indeed."
He sits and we start eating.
He breaks the silence with "So, how was your weekend?"
"It was fine, I didn't get up to much."
He says, "No hot dates this time?"
I laugh "We spent the day together on Saturday, really getting to know each other." "No shenanigans."
He nods looking down at his food and murmurs "That's good to hear."
To change the subject I say "Would you like me to go over your schedule sir?"
"Yes, please. What's on the agenda today?"
I pull out my work phone and bring up the schedule, "I see you don't have anything this morning. Looks like you have a lunch date with Vanessa"
I ball my hand into a fist. Who the fuck is Vanessa? I don't know why I feel like this when I have Brandon. I need to get it together.
I just don't like seeing Vanessa's name on his schedule with no details noted on what the meeting is about.
He's watching me silently, before saying softly "And after?"
"You have your meeting at 2:30 with Mr. Baldoni Sr."
"Mhm, and then?"
"Your next thing is at 5, looks like you're meeting up for drinks with Mr. Cheltenham."
"Okay, anything after that?"
"Nope, looks like that's the last thing scheduled for today."
"Okay, when I leave for that drinks meeting, you can feel free to go home at that time Liam."
I nod "Thank you sir. Would you be needing anything else before I leave you to your work?"
He shakes his head, "You aren't going to ask?"
"Ask what, sir?"
"Who Vanessa is."
I shake my head fast "Oh no sir! That's not my place to question who you are meeting."
"Professional, I see. Okay, I have nothing else. You can go."
I get up and gather our trays from the table and walk out of his office. I walk to the cafeteria to leave the trays before walking back to my office and going to my computer and searching up "Chase Logan and Vanessa'. A few articles pops up, but the top one is what grabs my attention. The article is titled 'Is the famous Chase Logan marrying Vanessa Barrett?'
I gasp, he's engaged?! What type of fuckery is he trying to get me involved in? He tells me that he wants to explore things between us, before going to have drinks with his supposed fiancée! How arrogant of him to think he could have his cake and eat it too. I click out of the browser and sit back in my seat, agitated now. I don't know why I'm so upset when I already decided that I wasn't going to pursue anything with Chase. Plus, I have Brandon. But I still have a sinking feeling in my gut.
I take a moment to analyze how I'm actually feeling and why. I shake my head when I realize I'm more upset about him being off the market, than I am about him having an actual fiancée. I don't want anyone else to have him. I want him for myself, even if I know it's not possible. It's not, right?
No. I have Brandon. The safer, wiser choice.
I still don't like thinking of Chase with anyone else. Kissing them, touching them, having sex with them.
I shake my head to rid it of the thoughts.
No, I can't think about things like that.
They'll make me want to grab him for myself.
But I can't.
Can I?
I can't trust myself with these thoughts. I like Brandon. I need to leave it at that, and maybe I'll be able to start a relationship with Brandon once I'm able to get Chase out of my mind. I do know though, no matter what, I can't sleep with Mr. Logan. He's engaged, and I'm on the brink of starting a new relationship myself. I really don't need to add on the complications that sneaking around with Mr. Logan would bring. I don't have a poker face, everyone would know the secret soon enough.
Gah! What am I thinking?? I don't know why I'm thinking about it as if I'll actually do it! Perish the thought!
I can't do anything that stupid. That would just end up hurting me and Brandon. I definitely don't want to hurt him. Even though I feel like I'll end up hurting him anyway. I just can't give in. Stay strong Liam!
Mr. Logan leaves for his lunch date, and returns 2 hours later a bit tipsy.
He shuffles thru my office stopping in front of my desk.
I stand up asking "Sir, how was your lunch date? Do you need anything?"
He responds by walking around my desk, and pulling me into his arms. I stiffen against him. I don't think he notices as he runs his nose up my neck. "Mmm." he murmurs "You smell good.
"Sir, you need to release me!"
His arms tighten around my waist, "I kinda don't wanna."